When God said I love you
Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
and before you were born I consecrated you;
I appointed you a prophet to the nations
For it was you who formed my inward parts;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works;
that I know very well.
My frame was not hidden from you,
when I was being made in secret,
intricately woven in the depths of the earth.
Your eyes beheld my unformed substance.
In your book were written
all the days that were formed for me,
when none of them as yet existed.
How weighty to me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!
I try to count them—they are more than the sand;
I come to the end—I am still with you.
Jeremiah 1:5, Psalm 139:13-18
From before you were conceived, God loved you because He knew you and was prepared to choose good things for you, knowing our every sin and seeing the hurt and confusion they often come from.[1] There is no love song, poetry, Bible verse, or reflection upon the cross of Christ that can express the love God has for you. Though it is worth trying.[2] This week I have been learning about Cognitive Behavior Therapy, and this will be shared later in more depth but the moment we place our defining premise concerning our identity in the love of someone or something that is not God we lose the possibility of not only emotional resilience but also loving anyone with the love that those God loves to deserve. It toxifies our lives and makes us wonder why we are not worthy of a love like God's. We can trace our present experience good or not, back to our identity and if God's love is not at the fore of our identity, we will likely find ourselves despairing on the floor. When God said "I love you" that is where you began, He longs for us to say it back because without doing so, we can never be true to ourselves, true to reality, able to truly love, capable of virtue, knowledgeable about what is good, and joyful.
God made us, and this is the first good God willed for us i.e. life. Our identity cannot be well and at the same time understood firstly as something ad contra being God's child, because like Christ is eternally begotten of the Father, we are, from the moment of our creation and even before (which Christ did not have to be clear), begotten, spiritually of a God who has only wanted what is good for us without premise. Whenever we assign the first premise of our identity to something other than this love (where we truly began), man's condition deteriorates, because he cannot know himself.[3] Let us be attentive then to the moment, the eternal moment, where God says "i love you" while giving us the life we need to be what we truly are, and may we reflect that moment living everlastingly in the moment we are returning that statement in our every aspect.
In conclusion, we only exist for One, and in existing for Him, we exist for all. No lesser love will bring us to fulfillment in every sense. No love can heal nor sustain like His.[4] Let us find ourselves the smallest creature, the most indebted of all creatures in need of the most love before Him Who is Love Itself. Let our first thought in every new moment of this Love that nothing shall remain as it is in us which ought to be different, more full, more radiant of life i.e. His life and love.
FN:
- Carter Carruthers, "The Lives that MATTER", Vivat Agnus Dei, January 22, 2023.
- Carter Carruthers, "Comprehending God's Love", Vivat Agnus Dei, April 30, 2023.
- John Paul II, Encyclical Letter on the Jesus Christ the Redeemer of Man _Redemptor hominis_ (4 March 1979), §10.; Francis. Address on the Homily during a Canonization Mass (15 May 2022).
- Carruthers, Carter. "Our Comparability to the Woman with Hemorrhages" Vivat Agnus Dei, January 31, 2021.